What to do with the Tulips~

I'm Ready~
To go out with her
Got my hairstyle done
Got myself dressed up
And my 20 colourful tulips
Just done decorating
No rain yet
I'm going now
Pick her up
And off to Snowflakes
Or maybe movies?
Haven't asked her yet
But...
Rain Fell
As I received her SMS
She felt uncomfortable
Going out today...
Ask if we could do it tomorrow
I'm not free
...
Whatever the reason is...
She starts to blame herself
For telling me last minute
I don't blame her
Nor the rain
It's just me
Putting too much effort
On an outing with her
So...
What to do with the Tulips?

Why Sharon, Why~

Why are you always sad
Said you'll stay strong
But you kept it inside
I went
Reading your blog
I didn't know you were having hard time
Why do you keep it for yourself?
I'm always here~
Always available
You're not unwanted...
Being friendly doesn't mean flirting around with guys
So don't care about those people
Be happy of who you are
Make your life worth living
You're a nice girl
Thats why,
I fell in love
with you
Sharon~
Don't keep your sadness alone
It hurts
For me to see you sad
And whatever you do,
Don't try to smoke
Please...
There's always a solution~

Lazy and Tired~

I'm tired of doing Temptations
Because of some stupid Issues
With that Guy
Not the team
My days are numbered
I'm stressed
I'm a leader of the cold kitchen
I can't produce anything
I'm a failure
I'm only interested in Japanese cuisine
My western sucks
Others did better
I don't care no more~
About Sharon...
I'm not giving up
Never will
Cause..
I've never fell in Love
This badly
Is this really what people call 'love'
If such relationship occur
Will there be a happy ending?
You'll never now
Unless~
You gave it a try
I wanna see
If I'm fit being her Boyfriend
So I asked her
To go out with me this Saturday
Still waiting her reply...
Till now~
Maybe she doesn't want it
I don't mind~
: )

By the Lakeside~

Saw her today
By the lake side
This time
I had my chance
I went after
But somehow
I chicken out
Feeding fish with Kenny instead
What was I thinking...
I sat bedside her
Look her in the eyes
Her make up was perfect
Eyes are as beautiful as always
Her smile was innocent
She's Lovely~
I couldn't stand being like this anymore
I should have told her
How much I missed her
I wanna held her in my arms
Tightly~
I can't
I'm a failure
I'm too Embarrassed to do so
My Mind went Blank every time I get a chance to see her
I hate myself
A Lot~

I Don't wanna Loose you~

I feel that
My relationship with her
Is getting further
I don't wanna loose you~
We're not Together
But I love her
We seldom talk
But we do msn
I'm Happy that I could see her everyday
From a Distance
In the cafeteria
I miss those days when we Chat together
I don't know how she feels about me
But I bet there's still a chance
To win her heart
Wish I could date her tomorrow
Or the day after
But~
My stupid car broke down
And This whole week
I'm Stressed and pressured
In Temptations
Why did I choose to train there?
Is it because of Her?
Or Friends?
...
I saw Sharon this morning
For the first time
I really felt like hugging her
I...
Wanna felt her Warmth
Her Comfort
But she's not my Girl
So I can't~

Training Week 1~

Fuck up week
Thought that it's gonna be fun at Temptations
But it's not...
That so call Chef Instructor
Chef Ang~
Pain in the ass
He teaches weird stuff
Wrong stuff
He's Lan si
I have nothing to say about him
He talks alot
Fuck him
Thing start to happened in Temptation among us juniors and seniors
I can't comment much about this
Cause I have no Proof
Oh well...
At least my senior Yin Ying is Still ok
She's my leader
I help her she help me
Cause she has not much knowledge on food
As well as her skills
I'll try my best to help her
Cause we're a Team
Yesterday night was Bon Odori~
'She' couldn't make it
And so I felt a bit sad
This year there was more people
And no Balloons
Sad~
I missed her badly
Every time I think of her
My mind went blank
And when I see her face to face
My heart went pounding
I'm curious about her
I wanna know more about her
I guess~
I still loved her
I wanted to be there for her
I want to be part of her Life
Cause I love her
Sharon~
I'll win over your heart
No matter what it takes
I'll show you how serious I am
Towards your love

Need Rest~

I need a rest
From all these relationship thing
I need some time to think
I know she needs one too
I can see it from her way of speech
Training coming
Stress Coming

For You~

It's been months since I blog.
When I look back in it
I felt like starting things over again
And so begin the new me
Early this year I had training
When I came back college I met this girl name Sharon
And so I fell in Love yet once more
It went deep
But found out she was just being herself
She kept blaming herself for what she had done to me
But I told her that it was ok
If she choose me
I'll give her my best
Cause from her blog
I could tell that we're on the same boat
I loved her
Yes I do
If only there's a chance for us
But it's too early
She's still on recovery from her ex
I wanna help her for now
Be by her side
Cause she's lonely
I can tell
Just by sms-ing or msn-ing
I told her I'll be there for her
All the time
So as for now like I've said
I'll be by your side
That's my Love for you~