Lonely Wuss~

Said I love her
Said I wanna be with her
I've getting less and less contact with her
What am I doing
I spend too much time on work
And less on her
My phone is down again
I'm getting mad
I dunno what to do
I'm having a nightmare
I...
Hate this life...
Maybe now's not the time for me
To have a relationship
Maybe I'm not qualified to...
I'm looking down on myself
I'm feeling so sad right now
I'm Lonely~

Sacked~

This week is hell of a week
That day
I give my opinion to Chef Ang
That my way of cooking potatoes
Is much faster
Mine was
Peel, cut and boil
His was wash, boil, peel and cut
My way was much faster
He came and scold me
And my friends
And wanted me to do it his way
Which is a waste of time
Fore Ala carte ok
Mass production no way
He sacked me
Ask me to go local
Because he over exaggerate
Which he thinks that I'm arguing with him
Stupid Chef
Work in so many restaurants never know such simple rule
Just listen before you talk la
Son of a bitch~
I felt so down
Under pressure
I burst into tears
Wei Wern called Mr Numa
We chatted
But nothing seems to happened~
I went back
He apologize
I did not accept mentally
I accept Physically
He's an ass
He'll take his revenge
And he did
Today~
Forced me to go local
Which is a no for me
Cause If you force someone to do things he don't like
You think that person will perform well?
No~
He'll fall and die
I have no Interest in going local
I don't like
Fuck that Ang
But Leader Ah Yew helping me
I hope she made the right decision
I believe in her~
Long time didn't see Sharon...
She don't seems to reply my messages often
I hope she's ok
Or maybe I annoyed her...?
I don't know~
Should I ask her out this weekend?
Maybe~
Maybe not~
I have bigger things to worry about
I'll make up some time I guess~

Happy Saturday?~

Went out with Sharon and her friend yesterday
Sharon~
She looks Cute
Her eyes are beautiful
Smile was charming~
But me...
I was quiet
Thinking about work
Kept quiet and follow them as they shop
Kindda bad~
And I'm sorry
But things change
When she showed me the shop
Which I've been finding it
For a long time already
I was so happy
But the price was like
So expensive
Cause came by plane
So I join her back
And went to Gasoline
Makan~
My first meal of the day
Thought they wanna go out at night
Bring them to snowflakes or something
But~
They were tired by the looks of their faces
So I sent them home
As well as Sharon
Kindda nice day I guess
It relaxes my mind
For a day~

Shut up~

I may not know how to talk
Sometimes I might make people unhappy
Sometimes not
I seldom talk now I guess
I only know how to Act
Not talk~
Actions Speaks Louder than Words
That's who I am
Shutting up
Is the best solution~

What have I done all these time~

What the Fuck?
Being so productive for what?
Come so early everyday for what?
Work so hard for what?
Relationship?
Why am I still on her?
Sharon~
Why do I love her so much?
Knowing that she doesn't?
What the hell am I doing?
Like seriously...
I just wanna be with her...
I'll keep on trying~
Tulips in my room
Are dieing...
Should have gave it to her that night...
I didn't sleep well
And I was busy on Sundays
I'm such a fuck up person...